‘Incurable optimist’ could die any day

Image caption Amy-Claire lives life to the full despite needing round-the-clock care for her degenerative condition

Agonising cramps strike Amy-Claire Davies several times a day, and any one of them could kill her.

Born with an unknown genetic condition, she has to take more than 40 pills every day, lives in pain and needs round-the-clock care.

But the 24 -year-old, who was not expected to live past childhood, has chosen to dream of a bright future focussing on her family, friends, boyfriend and hobbies.

“Life is amazing, ” she said.

She says she is part of a “new generation” of people who, despite being expected to die as children, are still alive well into adulthood thanks to medical advances.

Image caption Amy-Claire Davies’ heart rate rises to dangerous levels during a cramp and she often needs oxygen

“My world is full of love. I love mammy and daddy, and I love our puppies, I love my friends and family and I love bright clothes, cinemas and books and music, I love unicorns, coffee and of course, I love my new boyfriend Blue, ” she added.

“I have hopes and dreams for an incredible future. All normal stuff – a home, task, family and above all else, happiness and love.”

Amy-Claire’s brain sends the incorrect messages to the rest of her body, and any emotion such as feeling anxious, sad or happy can construct her spasm.

She fights for her life every time – struggling for every breath with her heart rate rising to a dangerous level.

Amy-Claire’s bowel does not work so she takes four sachets of a laxative each morning, and suffers a daily colonic irrigation while singing along to Whigfield’s Saturday Night. She has to take the narcotic fentanyl which would be fatal to most people.

But she enjoys learning guitar, taking dance class, yoga and the gym. She trained to swim at the London 2012 Paralympics, but objective up being too ill to compete.

Image caption Amy-Claire, aged 10, when it was believed she had cerebral palsy

Unlike most people in their 20 s, Amy-Claire, who is from Swansea, has an end-of-life plan in place detailing exactly how she would like her demise to be managed and details such as which songs she would like played at her funeral.

“I’d really like to trade my body in for a new model, ” she said.

“Constant agony sucks, nausea sucks.

“There’s no remedy and I literally live my life knowing each day could be my last.”

‘Prepared for the end’

Amy-Claire, who describes herself as a “miracle baby” as her parents were told they could not have children, was wrongly diagnosed with spastic paralysis as a child.

But when she hit puberty, the cramps began. And at 15, physicians told Amy-Claire and her mothers she could die at any time.

Image caption When she was 15, doctors told Amy-Claire and her family she could die at any moment

“I don’t ever remember not being ill, ” Amy-Claire said.

“My friends were growing up, dating and doing all sorts of cool stuff while I was going to a children’s hospice … We prepared for the end.”

She spent her teenage years in a whirlwind race to achieve 200 bucket list dreams.

“I’d never expected to grow up, then as I was daring to imagine a future everything altered, ” she said.

“I’ll never forget the day. I was at home just before my 19 th birthday. It was the day that I died.”

A spasm had attained Amy-Claire’s heart stop. Her mother and then health workers spent eight hours resuscitating her.

From then on she and her family were terrified it could happen again and Amy-Claire moved to a residential home in Cardiff for 24 -hour care.

Image caption Amy-Claire love travelling and has been to Amsterdam twice

After initially fixating on how long she had left, she says she accepts “I’ve got as long as I’ve got”.

“When I have the really painful ones[ spasms ], literally my brain just goes ‘I wanna die’.

“I’ll just sit there and my brain just goes over and over and over ‘I wanna die’.

“I think the hardest one especially for mum and dad is I’ll say sometimes ‘why won’t you just let me die? ‘”

Image caption Amy-Claire says she has a constant battle against ache

Due to her spasms, Amy-Claire has been left with post-traumatic stress disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, extreme nervousnes and says she has been suicidal.

“I just got so tired from the constant battle but through therapy and a lot of love and supporting I’m battling on, ” she added.

“I’m a strong woman because I was raised by a strong woman.”

For Amy-Claire, being alive is about inducing the most of every day.

Her condition is incurable, but she chooses to be an optimist and dares to think about the future.

Amy-Claire’s story, The Incurable Optimist, is on BBC One Wales, on Monday 25 February at 22:40 GMT and on BBC iPlayer.

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