Annnnnd we’re back for the fourth and final installment of F* ck Your Diet. This series is for you if you identify as a food addict, a binge eater, someone who feels stress over what you eat, or if you’re constantly trying to lose weight and going from diet to diet. Here is my disclaimer: if you feel happy and content with your relationship to food and weight, you have my full blessing to keep do whatever you’re doing. I’m not trying to napalm the part of your life that constructs you feel good. If you like your diet, simply don’t f* ck your diet. That’s my general rule of thumb: If you’re happy, I’m not trying to get you to do anything. But! If you feel like something is off in the way you relate to food, this is definitely for you.
I spent the first three installments explaining how food deprivation and limited actually cause and/ or perpetuate food fixation and many experiences of food addiction. I also explain how I went from a food-obsessed childhood binge-eater, to teenage chronic yo-yo dieter, to a weight-obsessed faux-intuitive eater. Dieting was my religion and sugar was the demon I was trying to purify myself from . And strangely, it all became a self-fulfilling prophecy, because the more I restricted food and sugar, the more and more out of control and “addicted to it” I felt when I unavoidably “slipped up” and drove to CVS at 11 pm in my parents’ car to buy sugar-free protein bars that I pretended were candy bars. But still, if you haven’t read the first three installments, I recommend you go ahead and do that, because you may not understand what the hell I’m talking about in this installment if you don’t. Part 1. Part 2. And, Part 3.
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It was almost eight years ago now that I awake up from my decade-long diet hell. Which means I’ve been eating whatever I want for eight years. And even though in the beginning I was very hungry and expended a few months eating a lot and stimulating up for lost hour, I didn’t actually end up spinning into years of chaos like we all worry we will if we stop dieting. The chaos is temporary. The extreme hunger is temporary. I didn’t eat the whole world. And today, even though I have zero( ZERO !) regulations around food, I do not eat a steady diet of donuts and McDonald’s and Snickers, because … I don’t want to( anymore ). In fact, at this point, I probably eat “ better” than I ever did on a diet, because I can actually hear what the hell my body is asking for, and the drama around food is gone.
So, what I’d like to do in this last piece in this series, is address some common fears that come up when people consider” F* cking Their Diet” or” Being on The F* ck It Diet”( which is actually what my site, Instagram, and book are named) or are even simply flirting with the idea of not dieting.
“Anytime I try to stop dieting, I eat route more than anyone should.”
You are not alone! In fact, this is one of the big reasons that most people are convinced they can’t give up dieting. But, feeing a lot of food is actually a really normal response to dieting or limiting food. We think it’s our bodies proving to us they’re violate or food addicted, but actually it’s merely survival. It’s just the body trying to make up for a famine scare.
We also tend to think that we should be eating way less food than we actually need. Did you know that in the 1940 s, there was an experiment where men were put on a semi-starvation diet of 1,600 -1, 800 calories a day for six months, and it induced them extremely emaciated and obsessed with food, and it induced a lot of them anxious and depressed, and normal sums of food didn’t help them to recover at all? Instead it took them 5, 000 -1 1,000 calories a day for months to rehabilitate their bodies and their intellects? Yeah. That happened.
So if that’s any clue, 1,600 -1, 800 calories is something lots of people think they should be striving for. Also, 1,200 -1, 400 calories is how much they recommend you feed your 2-year-old, so, you need a lot more, ok? No wonder we all feel so out of control with food. Most of us don’t even realize we are constantly trying to under-eat, and then we beat ourselves up for eating more than our too-low daily calorie amounts, and then we force ourselves to repent the next day by eating even less. What do you think that’s doing to our bodies and relationship with food ?! We just need to f* cking feed consistently, and stop putting ourselves on cleanses, ok ??!
“I honestly can’t trust my body or cravings, all I want to eat is cake and cookies and pizza. I’m positive that is all I would eat”
Craving only high-calorie dessert and “junk food” is also a really normal response to dieting.( And I promise it is just a stage before your cravings diversify and calm down .) If your body has been get intermittent access to calories( like going back and forth dieting and binging and dieting again ), or you’ve been trying to eat less food than your body wishings for a few months( or a few years ), you’re going to crave the densest food that you can find, because that will counteract the country you’re in the fastest . That’s why we crave cake and cookies and pizza and candy and grilled cheese and everything we think we shouldn’t have. Your body just wants dense and easy-to-assimilate calories for a while, because that is what will get your body out of a low-metabolic state the fastest, and back to a normal and more easy relationship with food, with more normal cravings.
The other thing is that when we make any food off-limits, that food is going to have wayyyy more allure psychologically than if you were allowed to eat it.( I used to misinterpret this and think: Ok, if I let brownies then I won’t WANT brownies. And then I’d be mad at myself that I still wanted brownies. But you can’t play that paradox! You have to actually allow yourself to eat the brownies !)
“I have to diet! I’m an emotional eater! ”
Dieting and restriction can actually build emotional eating worse. I know, what? First of all, many of us actually use dieting as a route to try and distract from our emotions, too. Not only does it bring the promise of beauty, glowing health, and praise, but it also dedicates us a high on stress hormones. But at the same time, the more we diet, the more chemically rewarding food and feeing becomes, and the more food can give us a “high”. So , not only is dieting its own version of avoiding our feelings, but in a way, it actually induces eating a more effective “drug”. And often, people go back and forth between the two “addictions” in a never-ending yo-yo. In order to build food a less effective narcotic, we need to stop dieting and curtailing. Another contradiction, I know.
Having other coping mechanisms and emotional support is definitely an important piece of the emotional eating puzzle. I’m not saying that ice cream should be your therapist. But, only beware that going on a diet to heal emotional eating is like trying to put out a brush flame by blowing on it.
“I have to diet! When I don’t diet, I gain weight! ”
Ahhhh, yes. Weight gain and cultural fatphobia. This is no small topic. It’s actually at the heart of this whole thing. It’s a core reason why we are all dieting in the first place. And it’s also a subject that stimulates the villagers take up limbs like they’re in their very own mob led by Gaston, and they storm into the comments to rage about the obesity epidemic. Because people feel very, very strongly about weight gain and health, and want to concern troll allll over the health of people they don’t know.
First of all, gaining weight after dieting is also another normal phenomenon. That’s what the body does. It loses some weight at the beginning of dieting, and then it insists you set it back on. It will literally slow down your metabolism and raise your thirst hormones in order to force you to gain back weight. It’s normal. It’s also survival. And we presume it’s the worst thing that could ever happen to us, but our bodies are doing it on purpose. We evolved this route, and it’s actually protective against withering away. Because , no matter what our culture tells us, becoming a nation of teeny tiny little string bean people isn’t actually what induces our bodies feel safest. Having a super low body fat percentage isn’t good for us and can wreak havoc on our hormones.
But we live in a very thin-obsessed and fatphobic society. We just do. And the thing that stimulates it so hard to even begin to have a conversation about not dieting is that there is a lot of moralizing over health that helps to justify people’s judgement over weight and the style people eat. People feel very strongly about weight and weight loss. Just go to the comments of these articles, you’ll assure. But what that means is that being afraid to gain weight, even a little, even weight that your body definitely needs and wants to gain, is understandable. We constantly see how much better people are treated when they are smaller or fitter or leaner, and how much judgment( and concern) comes along with gaining weight. We are praised nonstop when we lose weight. We assume that weight loss is always healthy and impressive, when, hey, a lot of people are losing weight because of eating disorders, illness, nervousnes, etc. Weight loss is not always healthy, and on the flip side, weight gain is not always unhealthy. But we live in a society where obsessing over food and weight, and developing disordered eating habits, are praised, and even encouraged, and that constructs it really hard to tell if what we are doing is healthy or if it’s going too far.
“So you’re saying that I simply have to accept my body as it is ?! What are you? A ogre trying to destroy the American people from the inside out ?? HOW is that healthy ?!?! ”
One of the things that really shook me and woke me up out of my diet and weight loss obsession was given to understand that what I believed about weight and health was based on misinformation and cultural bias. Because I cared about health. I still do, actually! Believe it or not!
We think we can fully blame people for their weight, and assume that they just aren’t trying hard enough. But, I entail, you’ve heard, right? Dieting backfires. This has been relatively mainstream public health info since 1992. But … we have a hard time hearing it. There is a cognitive dissonance. I used to hear that “diets don’t work” and think, “No no no noo, those scientists clearly aren’t studying the right diet.” But genuinely, weight loss diets backfire long-term. It’s not because we are lazy, it’s in our biological blueprint. Initial weight loss on a diet happens all the time, but our bodies will eventually adjust to try and get our weight back into a range where it feels safe. And the idea that we just need to keep eating less and less and less to try and keep up with our body opposing back is not healthy. That’s not health! That’s focusing on weight at the expense of health.
Get this: a two-year study was done with two different groups of women categorized with an obese BMI, and the group that didn’t diet or focus on weight loss, but instead attained subtle healthy lifestyle changes–joyful movement that they actually liked doing, feeing in an intuitive , nourishing style that wasn’t focused on weight loss, stress reduction and shame reduction, and being kinder to themselves and their bodies. And at the end of two years, they ended up with improved overall health( blood pressure, blood lipids, mental health symptoms ), even though that group didn’t end up losing weight. And the group of women who focused on standard weight loss protocol( good old fashioned monitored, guided diet and exercise, prescribed by a diet) lost weight initially, but gained everything is back and then some, and aimed up with worse physical and mental health markers that they started with by the end of two years, even when lots of them were still sticking to the doctor-prescribed diet. So what that means is that joy and self-compassion was good for their health, and earnest and doctor-monitored weight loss backfired big time.
I know! I know! Nobody wants to hear this! But in the very least, it’s important information if we want to understand what the HELL is going on when we put ourselves on a diet. And the committee is also matters if what we really care about is our overall health.
So, back to the question: am I trying to ruin the health of our nation? No, I’m just trying to explain that obsessing over our weight and food and exert isn’t good for our health. A hyper-focus on weight and weight loss and perfect feeing actually ends up being a distraction from genuinely taking care of ourselves. The truth is, when people stop dieting, some people eventually lose weight, but some people need to gain weight, and some people stay the same. Either way, forcing it tends to backfire in more than one way.
I definitely “understand what i m saying” it scares people. It sounds highly irresponsible, because people still assume that not dieting entails feeing donuts for breakfast and lunch and then eating mac n’ cheese and Burger King for dinner each night. And then feeing an entire cake in bed. Which is actually the kind of thing I was more likely to do when I was constantly forcing myself to diet.
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This is the( actual) volume dedication for The F* ck It Diet. I considered dedicating it to my little sister, but her response to me was, “aw that’s sweet but like, don’t, y’know? ” So I said, “fine. Cheese it is.”( Have you read #thefuckitdiet ???? – my sister hasn’t but that’s ok because I bug her enough in real life. You can read the first chapter for free by visit my site slash connect in bio etc etc etc )
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These days, food isn’t the drama that it used to be. I ate a varied diet and I eat until I am full. I crave healthy foods, I crave dense foods, I crave vegetables and fruit. I crave pizza. I’ll eat one( or, y’know, sometimes even two !) pieces of cake instead of finishing off the cake at 1am while standing in front of the refrigerator. I feed dessert. I feed flapjacks. I eat the bread on the table at restaurants. I feed grains and meat and eggs and lots and lots of cheese. Sometimes people ask me what I like to eat, and I usually can’t even remember because that is how little I think about food now. It’s food. I like it! I like it a lot! I want to feel good, I want to feel fed, I want to feel alive, and I want to go live my life and pet my puppy and go get happy hour.
In conclusion: I think sweet potatoes and green juice are healthy, and I like them, and I feed/ drinking them! But scare the crap out of nachos was ultimately very bad for me. Maybe that applies to you, too?
It’s been so great to get to share my story and experience with Betches readers. I know some of you dislike me now, but that’s only the name of the game when you talk about diets. People get cagey. People are very devoted to their diets, and in some way, diets are the new religion of the 21 st century. If you read this series and you’re like, “this is … interesting to me, but I’m not convinced, ” my book The F* ck It Diet runs wayyyy more in depth. You can also start researching weight stigma and Health at Every Size, and start reading all of the things that helped open up my eyes to the dark side of dieting. You can also follow me on Instagram at @thefuckitdiet.( I post a lot of instagram narratives of my bernedoodle if you’re into that sort of thing .)
And remember, if you’re having a great time dieting, or doing whatever you’re doing, I genuinely don’t care if you diet or not. I promise. Everybody should do what works for them. Don’t F* ck Your Diet on my account. BUT, if you’re stressed out over food and weight and have been in a dysfunctional cycle with dieting, I invite you to come join us over here on the other side of diet culture. There are snacks! There are cheese committees with dried fruit and sourdough bread! You can take naps! You’re allowed to buy clothes that actually fit you! Nobody will ever force you to wake up at 4:30 am to go to the gym! And there are no diets.
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